Why do I miss you?

Recently, I've been thinking more and more about my friend who I met through university applications and talked to all last summer.


We used to talk for hours on Skype every day, only stopping if one of us had to go out or do something. We spoke from about April up until August without stopping.


Here's the thing: we both applied for university in Sheffield. He got in, I didn't. Cue, him deciding not to bother talking to me anymore.


But it's not as easy as all that - I still really miss our chats that took up entire days, and I wish he'd visit me again, or even just start a simple conversation. Not that he believes that.


Why do people miss each other? I mean, it's not like I don't have any other friends... I just want to speak to him again. There's something about this one person that makes me want to talk to him. I just blew my chance with this by not getting the grades I needed.


And don't get me wrong, I absolutely love Lincoln, and my university now. I have the best friends anyone could ask for. I do a brilliant course. I'm enjoying my new life.


I just wonder what my life could have been like if I'd done something differently.


So, really, this is a "what if" blog.


What if I'd done something different, gone a different way in life?


But I'll never know that, and I guess it's time to stop wondering - I need to look to the future.


It does make me wonder though: how many other potential students go through this every year, all because of universities and UCAS? 

Filling time

Okay, so I know it's been a while since I last posted.


I can't even lie and say there's been a lot going on... Uni has finished for Easter, and most of my time has been spent in the sun with my friends. Looks like that'll be my only break though - I'm cracking down on my assignments, and it's tough. 


Right now, I'm sat in my kitchen in student halls, armed with only my laptop, some library books and my lecture notes. I'm in for a long night, and then filming tomorrow.


On the plus side, at least I have my flatmate, Dawn. It feels like we've become a lot closer recently, and we've even made plans to go on holiday next Easter (to the Caribbean, no less!) - not sure how likely it is to happen, but it's nice making the plans!


All that's left for me to do now is actually get to work - I've been sat here since 3 this afternoon (it's now midnight) and all I've done is research my Public Admin essay. Not such a great start.


Thank goodness for Youtube and its vast expanse of music videos to get me through this!


So, now to get back to work.


Night, folks!