Me again, signing in for the first time in a long time.
And right now, I'm stressing - exams are just a few days away!
So this will be a really quick blog, just to check in.
It was my birthday yesterday, and I'm feeling old. 19.
And some of you may well cry out in protest at this - "19?! And she feels old? She needs to get some perspective!" - but I have my reasons.
When I was 17, someone I was really close to died, just a week before his 20th birthday. Hitting 19 has shown me that soon I'll be older than he ever was, and it doesn't feel right, not one bit.
Of course, I had a good time (thanks to all of my amazing flatmates and uni friends!), but some things just play on your mind.
Showing posts with label relationships. Show all posts
Showing posts with label relationships. Show all posts
Thursday, 24 May 2012
Tuesday, 3 April 2012
Why do I miss you?
Recently, I've been thinking more and more about my friend who I met through university applications and talked to all last summer.
We used to talk for hours on Skype every day, only stopping if one of us had to go out or do something. We spoke from about April up until August without stopping.
Here's the thing: we both applied for university in Sheffield. He got in, I didn't. Cue, him deciding not to bother talking to me anymore.
But it's not as easy as all that - I still really miss our chats that took up entire days, and I wish he'd visit me again, or even just start a simple conversation. Not that he believes that.
Why do people miss each other? I mean, it's not like I don't have any other friends... I just want to speak to him again. There's something about this one person that makes me want to talk to him. I just blew my chance with this by not getting the grades I needed.
And don't get me wrong, I absolutely love Lincoln, and my university now. I have the best friends anyone could ask for. I do a brilliant course. I'm enjoying my new life.
I just wonder what my life could have been like if I'd done something differently.
So, really, this is a "what if" blog.
What if I'd done something different, gone a different way in life?
But I'll never know that, and I guess it's time to stop wondering - I need to look to the future.
It does make me wonder though: how many other potential students go through this every year, all because of universities and UCAS?
We used to talk for hours on Skype every day, only stopping if one of us had to go out or do something. We spoke from about April up until August without stopping.
Here's the thing: we both applied for university in Sheffield. He got in, I didn't. Cue, him deciding not to bother talking to me anymore.
But it's not as easy as all that - I still really miss our chats that took up entire days, and I wish he'd visit me again, or even just start a simple conversation. Not that he believes that.
Why do people miss each other? I mean, it's not like I don't have any other friends... I just want to speak to him again. There's something about this one person that makes me want to talk to him. I just blew my chance with this by not getting the grades I needed.
And don't get me wrong, I absolutely love Lincoln, and my university now. I have the best friends anyone could ask for. I do a brilliant course. I'm enjoying my new life.
I just wonder what my life could have been like if I'd done something differently.
So, really, this is a "what if" blog.
What if I'd done something different, gone a different way in life?
But I'll never know that, and I guess it's time to stop wondering - I need to look to the future.
It does make me wonder though: how many other potential students go through this every year, all because of universities and UCAS?
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